Modestly Meloncholy

I forgot what it was like to have these human emotions and reactions. Not exercising the heart and keepin shit robot is not healthy at all. I wish I could mind meld thoughts when I'm having them during the day direct to this blog, the emotional intensity is steaming. I guess I deserve some of thos karma reaction I subconsiously sabatoge my relationships before they have a chance to even start. I didn't love you or anything but the way everything just STOPPED is heart breaking. But I don't care, remember? You said you get like this when things were over for you in the past. Chilly. But I don't care.