Monday, March 29, 2010


FML Y'all.

Once again, working all night when I should be relaxing or doing personal projects. Can't seem to please anyone. Damn.

At least I finally joined the gym.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Screen Cleaner, or "The horse jumped over the fucking fence,"

I don't know where the days go. How is it the middle of March already?

What do I have to show for it?

“Life happens too fast for you ever to think about it. If you could just persuade people of this, but they insist on amassing information.”

you said it my man

Feeling very depressed right now, wishing I had some xanax. I'm not really sure what's up.

Feeling stuck, but not really in a rut -- more like I need a goal or purpose, something to pull me ahead. Things are cool, but it's kind of the daily grind, rush, rush and do it. Thought, depth, vision? I don't feel apart of any such thing. Spiritually dry.

The world. Hm. The world, flat data sharing and laughing but flat -- commercials on TV become the reality -- fast foreword everyone, who cares....

I don't want to care about the future, I want to care about now, and the next now, and the next.

Ay, yo - word up Paula Gamble

Monday, March 15, 2010

this to shall pass

got to work on my balance game.

Friday night, i was being a baby, and being all depressed because I was not djing.

Went to sleep early.

Saturday was great because I woke up at the crack of dawn and got a ton of stuff done by noon. I slowed down from noon till 11pm.

Pianos was fun, but I clearly got too drunk, as I didn't wake up until Sunday afternoon.


I then proceeded to sleep way mote than I needed to, because I was a) feeling like crap, and b) pissed at myself for wasting the day.

O well.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

good advice

(I found this to be very important. Group, what do you think? John La Tourrette, PhD)

Don't demand perfection of yourself.

An A is usually awarded to the person who scores 90 percent or better, and sometimes the score doesn't need to be that high.

Professional basketball players only make half their shots.

Professional quarterback complete only half their passes, and professional baseball players reach first base less than 40 percent of the time, and that includes walks.

And we all know what our averages are in picking stocks to invest in that are always going up.

That would be never!

Give your best effort every day and keep ratcheting forward.

Perfection is not only totally unrealistic to expect and virtually impossible to achieve, but it greatly deters your ability to move forward.

The person who is constantly looking over his or her shoulder at what might have been done better can't possibly be focused on the future.

Drive with your eyes ahead; don't drive by concentrating on the rearview mirror.

Denis Waitley

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Sleep and Stories

One of my favorite times of day is the early morning after I've woken up but am still sitting in bed. Caressed by sunshine, warm, comfortable - birds chip, dreams still come through in fleeting bursts - all potential, all is right.

Thoughts to be processed - nostalgia vs real value, present and past, mythic fields, new stories, love and lasting stories.

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Was digging this Michael McDonald song so much I made a video

Viral gold.

Spec Ops T.H.E. Pack

I just got this backpack in the mail (in black). OMG so amazing. Made in America, super high quality. Love it.

Spec Ops


SO Today...


SO yesterday I woke up and the sun was shining, etc.

TODAY I wake up feeling groggy, not rested, anxious -- it's rainng, windy and blustery like crazy out. Also, lest night, although I was tired before bed, I could not fall asleep, had dreams where my boss(s) were saying I was horrible, etc., then I dreamt I was on some trip with my sister and her horrible boyfriend, and noone was on my side.
As I was falling asleep also last night, I would constantly think about "problems" and negative shit.

Not quite sure what this is all about.

I've been on this "detox", which is more about healthy physical living (for only 2 days) -- but perhaps a mental detaox is happening as well.


Oh well, I'm feeling better after having writen this.

Tuesday, March 02, 2010


GOD DAMN. Stupid marketers /"agencies" STFU about your harebrained schemes to promote lame shit.

Buckminster Brooklyn (I like that)

When the Brooklyn Dodgers outgrew Ebbets Field, club owner Walter O’Malley proposed a domed stadium, the first of its kind, to be built at the now-controversial Atlantic Yards area. The probable designer? The geodesic dome master builder himself, Richard Buckminster Fuller. But another master builder by the name of Robert Moses preferred Queens over Brooklyn, and soon the disagreement between O’Malley and Moses turned into deadlock. O’Malley would whisk away his ballplayers to California and the domed stadium would die on the drafting table.

Fuller never built a physical structure in Brooklyn, but he did call the borough home for a while. After getting expelled from Harvard (twice!), he spent time living at a YMCA in Fort Greene and working at a nearby branch of Armour and Company, the meat-packing house, all the while courting his future wife, a Brooklyn Heights girl. “The only way I could express my feelings for Anne–I was pretty inarticulate about my emotions–was to send bunches of red roses from Weir’s, the florist on Fulton Street,” said Fuller.

This Brooklyn Based writer was educated about Fuller from a very young age thanks to her father and his 3-D toothpick models, but for those of you not familiar with Fuller’s weird genius, here’s a quick history lesson: Fuller was a designer, engineer, writer, architect, philosopher, inventor, mathematician, humanitarian and fervent optimist who lived from 1895-1983. Although friends called him Bucky, he referred to himself as “Guinea Pig B,” viewing his life as an experiment. As early as the 1920s, Fuller was developing ideas for cost-effective shelters and forms of transportation in addition to looking at renewable sources of energy–he was an environmental activist before the term existed. He was known for such sayings as “We are called to be architects of the future, not its victims” and, “Humanity is acquiring all the right technology for all the wrong reasons.” But because his global and futuristic thinking was forward-thinking, he was considered a crackpot by more moderate minds.

Today, Bucky’s spirit lives on in Brooklyn at the Buckminster Fuller Institute, which in 2004 moved from California to Bedford Avenue near McCarren Park in Williamsburg.

According to Will Elkins, one of three staff members at BFI, the move coincided with the hiring of a new executive director. The goal was to make the private, archives-only institute more proactive and accessible, in order to “take programming off the ground.” Elkins started out as a volunteer in 2007, after having heard Fuller’s name tossed around at college and working for Chuck Hoberman, the creator of plastic collapsible spheres for kids. He has since moved on to a full-time role at BFI, a job that includes program planning and facilitating, seeing to general office tasks and fielding inquiries that range from general questions about the institute to, “What was Fuller’s eye glass prescription?”

BFI’s most prominent endeavor is the annual Buckminster Fuller Challenge, in which $100,000 is awarded by a jury to a design proposal that supports “the development and implementation of a strategy that has significant potential to solve humanity’s most pressing problems.” Past winners have included MIT’s Smart Cities Group and its plans for more sustainable modes of transportation, and John Todd and his blueprint for a carbon-neutral economy in coal-heavy Appalachia. This year’s semi-finalists, recently announced, include Plastic Island, an ambitious, oceanic recycling plan, and FarmShare, a site that will directly link consumers and producers created by BK Farmyards (whose Youth Farm we wrote about last week).

The BFI also has a variety of programs for non-professional crackpots. The Prototype Program is an outlet for artists and architects to construct original projects based on Fuller’s designs and principles. The results have appeared around New York, from a geodesic tent at Park(ing) Day, to a 12-foot climbing wall at the DUMBO Arts Under the Bridge Festival, to a spherical structure made from plastic containers not currently recycled by the city at the Governors Island Figment Festival. Next up for Prototype, BFI is partnering up with a local architect to create a pavilion out of re-purposed (and possibly melted-down) 2-liter bottles. Grant-funded research is underway for spring construction so the pavilion can debut at summer events in the city.

In the meantime, you can now visit BFI. It was a private office, but on February 3 they unveiled the public Study Center, comprised of books, magazines, photographs, videos and the Dymaxion timeline with various domes and models dotting the room.

The Study Center is open Monday-Thursday from 1pm-4pm and by appointment. On the BFI site you can sign up for the monthly newsletter, Design Science News, or reach out if you want to get your geek on and volunteer. For as Bucky once said, “You can never learn less, you can only learn more.”


I need to eat.

My brain is running at low speed. Need food. Going to get food.

NIce Day

My god it's beautiful out this morning. Woke up feeling rested, birds chirping, sun shining. Damn

Monday, March 01, 2010

I've been blazing through work this evening, which is good.

My shoulder(s) are crazy tight - that's bad.

Learning about life everyday.

Zora List

Here’s some suggestions for making your own Zora List:

1. First, write down everything you’ve ever wanted to do/see/learn/accomplish. Doesn’t matter how crazy, outlandish, basic - who cares? If you want it, write it down. The longer it is, the better. Dream big
2. Break down your list into subcategories that will make tracking your progress easier later on. For example, places to go, things to learn, financial goals, educational goals, etc.
3. See anything that can be accomplished in the short term? Make a list of things to accomplish in the next quarter.
4. For the long term stuff, are there any short-term steps that will get you closer? For example, if you want to travel, but you don’t have a passport, put getting your passport app completed on the short term list. Or if you want to visit someplace specific, add things like “check for hotels” or “save x number of $ per paycheck” to the short term list.
5. Print it on one page. If you have to print it on big paper to get it all in one place, so be it, but make sure it’s all visible at a glance. Then put it somewhere you’ll look at it at least once every few days. The more you see it, the more you’ll act on it.
6. Aim to complete one short term item every week. When you complete an item, highlight it instead of crossing it out - that way, you’ll see your accomplishments instead of big black Sharpie marks, which will just encourage you to keep moving forward.
7. Every quarter, check your progress and update the short term list.
8. If things get crowded, move your accomplishments to a different piece of paper and post it in your workspace/office/lair.

Life can’t be mediocre if you’re getting the things you really want to do done!

One bite at a time, you’ll eat the entire elephant. My life in the last five years is *dramatically* better than the five years prior to that, and it’s all because I took small steps to accomplish the things I really wanted to do.



2010 is going too fast.

Sweet Backpacks

DAMN. I love these backpacks.


A Healthy March

My brain is feeling very mushy right now.

I've decided to go on a 2 week - 1 month long health kick.

Loose weight, get in shape, eat better, no drinking, better sleep, focus, balance and action.

The edges of my life are just getting too sloppy, and the bleed though is slowing me down in all the important areas.

Also: going to begin posting here more. Social media is just too.. something.